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wanting a good life for your children, life's meaning: so that they too may wish for a good life for their children. after all, you as child look back upon your ancestors and think "they fought for this...": the existential IOU is once again compounded

out eating your diet tapeworm...? (he only eats 4 calories a day)

people want their country to do well. but they don't really accept having a bunch of elite immigrants come in and do that for them, or really a ton of change at all for that matter. they want to be involved in building their country. but do they have what it takes? how much agony is incurred by the feeling of defending your country, saying you not only want it to be great, but that you want to be the reason it is great, then failing? perhaps there is a patriotic duty then to go down with the ship, rather than sell it off--drag it into your selfish self-punishment... ~"america is for americans, in sickness and in health, till death do us part"

i'm cultivating impotent ambition, you wouldn't get it, DAD!

(i am) the jackson pollock of words

sometimes it's really difficult to speak proper english, to be intelligible, to "communicate" when all i really want to do is throw out a basket of words imbued with my will. perhaps insufficient education has misaligned my will vs expression

the fact you experienced any conflict of mixed identities, ethinicity and/or nationality, means you are not american: deported !

there are a thousand proofs to famous unsolved problems in your LLM. it's your job to prompt them out

do you even read socrates bro

at some point you look at the world and you cannot see its magic anymore. no infinite rabbit holes to fall down, no cultish fervor to rapture you, no total reconfigurations of the world. it’s all so… normal, understandable, or acceptable as to how non-understandable it is. to be young— world where you snouted around all day for new nuggets of insight, where each experience was a gateway to an entirely unknown world. to be old— the grandma that has seen the world fly by them, now is reinvigorated. there is again so much to learn, so much to theorize upon, so much busy oneself with, if one is willing. there is then just the boring middle: those who’ve aged and now are competent in the world. a great many things are now known to you, and being surprised is a bit passe. you feel yourself expected to have knowledge and familiarity with a wide wide variety of topics and regimes, and beyond expectation, this is the normal endpoint of your curiosity: you’ve expanded it all as much as you can following your desire. perhaps it can indeed be kept alive, to find the wonder in all things constantly, but insight is no longer free. you’ve seen highs and lows, exactly as intended. once you’ve reached out far enough, that becomes the extent of your domain, and your domain is flat. no longer catching up, not yet falling behind; this is what it means to be in the current world.

you think that for a gadget guy for Christmas you could just give them a gadget, a novelty... but it doesn’t work like that. because he’s buying gadgets on sight. he's buying gadgets you never even heard before. he’s in the gadget mines. you cannot compete. every time you get him a gift of a gadget he pulls out like three of the same one. it’s very common to see a recommended gift being some gadget stocking stuffer. but no, it really doesn’t work like that. It only works if they’re not a gadget person.

from my observations of kids these days, bike pedals are purely decorative now

you: trying to convince her in dms you are not an npc so she gives you a chance.

her: IMG_1466.jpg

<entity with power over the target>: IMG_1466.jpg

(the broken image link is a comedic reference, but also allows the reader to insert any kind of image as imagination. the initial setup prompts insecurity, making the imagined image all the more devastating)

"saying what we all think" (saying what all the idiots think)

i half-learned a few concepts like “selection effects”, “systematized winning”, and “evolution” and my life is completely ruined as a result

no! dont buy me clothes! i am changing, i swear!

high earner, not wealthy yet uwu

it’s not that he’s unworthy of love, or undeserving. i dont believe in such things. it’s just that if you look at him: his body, his mind, his shape… it is impossible for him to be loved in these conventional ways you imagine. to have a warm welcome by a caring wife that has cooked him a hearty meal, her recognition of him as an important part of her life—he doesn’t have the resources to be a breadwinner and is unable to inspire the sense of giving in most women for that to happen. to hold a woman tight on a bench by the foggy bay, her feeling enveloped, protected and warm—his meager frame and unwarm presence make this impossible. to ravage a woman completely such that she feels a spiritual connection to his soul and desires to be his—he is lacking and prone to peculiar behaviors that simply do not evoke these emotions in women. that is not to say that any of these behaviors can be imitated, for a moment, in his life… but none of it will be lasting or abundant. to have love as you imagine it is impossible for this man, as he currently is; he would have to be destroyed and remade for love to come to his name. a man has every right to be whoever they desire or fall into being, and yes, he deserves love in all cases… but the world gives love only to those are capable of taking it, rather than all those who deserve it. (being ontologiclly unloveable?)

as you get more and more distant from someone: you see your parents buying random junk from ads, you see a friend struggling to understand your perspective, you see facebook friends posting slop and bad memes; you realize they are slipping away into the void: who is this person anymore? my empathy no longer extends to them and their behaviors… their personhood has become invalidated to me subconsciously

~"you were the best first girlfriend any guy could ask for"

sensei says there are only 2 kinds of people who look at a iq vs income chart: smart guy who lived up to his potential, and smart guy who didnt live up to his potential

california: imports high-earning young folks, exports high social-cost retirees. "imports" and implements progressive policies, closing down or moving any related industries out of state. perhaps the "negative externalities" of california in the current state could be framed as: brain drain of other states; the support of old retirees to other states; the burden of cheap land to other states; the necessities of ESG-costly industries to other states.

the grandma entertains the baby. the baby entertains the grandma. completeness. two types of entertainment, symbiotic

sometimes it is a bit… say… awkward? guilty? exasperating? when they are there someplace in front of you, pleading, promising you their everything… but you know that even their 110% cannot meet your price

arfid: incredible world filter: so much food is disgusting, absolutely disgusting — beyond a descriptive thing, it turns into an emotional, charged rejection. hijacked consciousness

peak insults, these days: undergraduate philosophy, middle-class aspirations

managing the family as responsibility: things dont get fixed, things dont stay in control, things dont whip up into shape unless YOU provide the impetus, the drive, the will. otherwise, everyone fails in all the same ways all together… responsibility, accountability, will: burden falls on all but felt only by who...? patriarch is a bit of shorthand for what is traced throughout history. not patriarch exclusively… but eldest, the able-bodied young one who must take on the mantle of “evolution”: once parents are old, they no longer change, take new jobs, decide new life restructuring for all; the newly grown up are now empowered, and the dependence on them builds up more and more, until they are the anchor, foundation and support. such is the fate of dynasty. not only a responsibility, but a witness to your power: the choices you make are no longer trivial; a loss of you becomes not merely a tragedy, but structural failure of the whole. so… we talk about “head of the family” and such, we criticize and reject it. but when the family declines, runs into problems, social and financial, has persistent behavioral issues… say the house is always dirty, the lawn is unkept, people eat unhealthily… the one who is most able, who is no longer feeling the wear of old age, who has the most to contribute, the best to contribute: they are compelled to fix the situation, to impart passion and reason to make the family well again. of course, nowadays this is refused as a patriarchal role. both husband and wife can be prime here, and perhaps even the children where the parents fall lacking.. in reality it is a role that is assigned to no one, absolutely no one. it is a crown in the dirt and squalor, waiting to be picked up; it is destined to fall into the hands of whoever feels both most passionate to, whoever feels most capable to, whoever feels most obligated to

bees dying as they explore forth into an asphalt hellscape, nothing of their aim to be found (bee hell)

wasting all the memory in my ex’s phone by sending him photos of all black pixels xdd im sooo petty🤪

LLM teaching my kid how to read: "okay, now guess what word should go next based on the context of the sentence. no need to try to sound it out. understanding must come before pronunciation"

driving is the thing that happens in between tiktok shorts -john lennon

being somewhere still gives something unique to understanding the geography than looking at a map, seeing pictures, even using street view

if i were some dream enjoyer perhaps i could appreciate seeing dreams as tracing the contours of your mind. when else does your mind get so deeply involved in some thought that the full sensory gamut is used? with such high fidelity, the brain runs wild, every feature exposed

you indeed have the right to own property. but we must clarify what you mean by "own". our records here say your ownership needs some validation: the property lines are a few meters off, and the inheritance was never really properly probated. now, to just give you this property would be deeply unfair to others; a proper review and adherence to regulation is needed to protect both your rights and everyone else's.

you indeed have a right to life. there is no denying that. but let’s talk about the technicalities…

trump: i can start and stop wars at will (...why would you want to start them?) so I can stop them

they dont want love. they dont want dating. they want to endlessly critique dating

we are proud to announce our largest and tallest senator to date. he edges out previous record holders by more than 10% on weight and more than 2 inches in height. this is a monumental accomplishment that we can all be proud of, and you, citizens, can rest easy knowing that you are getting the most senator for your vote.

"In other news, Trump today hit a zero percent approval rating. Huzzah!"

No. You don't understand. You are in danger. (i suppose, implying everyperson who disagrees with trump thinks he doesn't go far enough, rather than not liking the direction of his policy)

systems thinking vs moral responsibility (ex: is a violent criminal morally bad, or are they a victim of a troublesome environment?)

walking on the subway... there is sometimes a dirty spot; probably somebody dropped something. you avoid it, like everyone else. but then the next spill happens in a cleap spot, where people walk. so dirtiness is kind of self-distributing

if you had any faith in what they were saying you would be ******* **** ** ** *****. absent that, you’re basically ****** ***** **** *** ********

you come across criticism on the internet, what path do you take? perhaps that it is irrelevant to you, that you simply are unable, the circumstances do not permit, or that they do not understand you. this is debasing you, self-deprecation, and result: you place yourself in a lower, unassailable class relative to them: your own box and territory to concern yourself with. or perhaps: you think, their opinion is not of the kind of people you care about, that if you followed their opinion you would be led astray, that they are unaccomplished in the manner you care about; here you place yourself aside, or above them. again, your box, territory is unassailable. what does it mean to truly engage with criticism?

*accidentally liking something* this little maneuver is gonna cost us 50 days in algo

finding the next ["omg, that place was sooooo good pre 20xx -- shame what has happened to it"] before it disintegrates?

disagreeableness worship... for what purpose?

to revive an old term, I’m just socially awkward

council that reviews your life and determines whether you are worthy of complaining about dating online —certified organic Valid Dating Complaint

the people you love, who suffer, who are not their best; it is your duty to exert pressure on them, to get them to choose to be better. but; press too hard, too particularly, and they may kill themselves. they resent you a little in that moment: whether they are overcome with self-despair convinced by you; or they feel they cannot live up to the goal you set; or even that they despair and resent you, feel you are part of the world which crushes them into a cube. as a loving one, this is a balancing act: exert so much force as to change them for their own good while avoiding killing them.

(hammurabi as a kindergarten teacher) hands are a privilege, not a right

oh my god i just love being in a dilemma, the gray zone, the no right answer zone: oddly comfortable knowing that every choice is bad, that it’s supposed to be hard

should learn to speak LLMish. switch to chinese here, use german phrasing there... we shall become one with the digested monolanguage. somethings just don't really translate to english, you know?

does he love you? how do you know? take him to court, maybe. assess the evidence, so that it can be judged beyond a reasonable doubt.

that dispiriting moment at the party when you realize that your suffering has no entertainment value!

empathy extent range; those outside might as well die to you.

guy who thinks his dog understands adverbs

"novelty" sapped by the camera, to be distributed; so for the once-in-a-lifetime view, a wild experience, a very interesting person: the camera does steal some of the soul. take too much, and they can become ordinary.

stuck on an escalator? (for hours, establishing a pee corner, etc)

learning something new about the world, in fundamental fields, about concepts that organize your understnading into neat paradigms: how is it that I didn't know about this? i've been living under a rock! what kind of false world have i actually been living in? clawing my way to the real world one step at a time

"ordinance and ordinance accessories"

type of fiction that’s a bunch of funny references to things the audience knows about and that’s it. they enjoy it purely from the feeling of getting all the references.

shutdown procedures for humans: some sequence of words, images, maybe… *experiences* that you show to them, and make them fully happy, satisfied with their lives, content, enough to die happily; suppose (very rough examples) something of: children happy and successful, made a legacy, friends and family happy, having lived a life full of experiences, doing everything on their bucket list, etc. though… who’s to say the correct sequence is at all mappable and intelligible to normal human expectations? perhaps some weird sequence of images makes them perfectly happy. “he’s being stubborn? well, run this program on him and he’ll be glad to go” “new regulations say you have to run this on every terminal patient; well-being contingencies, you see: better safe than sorry.” ~BLIT/BSOD-ish

easy mistakes vs hard mistakes?

if you’ve never missed a flight, (you’re probably spending too much time in airports) you have not contributed to incentives for overbooking, which is, despite compensation, a moral injustice everyone can understand the first time they hear about it

“everything has its place”, “everything according to plan”, manifesting, etc: in one sense, there are places where this happens: like-minded people gather together, find each other. (not a rule… but otherwise you have absolutely nothing to believe in?) then it becomes: they who know, who understand, who yearn in the right way and act in accordance do find this promised land. and if you do not? you were not worthy. hell, the promised land does not advertise, because it is exactly those who cannot find it on their own that they desire to exclude from the place… and are you one of them? does this fate, this manifestation of reality allow for mistakes? how “deserving” could you be, if you did not want and be in the correct way?

i was contaminated with a fear of the number 4 at a very young age

billions play the game, and to make progress, it is found to be necessary that some must lose. losing is bad, and must come with consequences: suffering. thus it is, that on the whole, the magnitude of suffering is optimally nonzero. that is the game that the overseer plays, seeing each of these bits not as an individual life lived in pain, but as means to an end. the end which is not even specified, known, but is instead formless, unseen; found through grasping in the darkness with no particular intention, only the convenience of every next moment.

scrolling as a muscle: 5 sets of 5 refresh pulls, 1RM for longest scrolling session, etc

(a zebra, probably) be untameable

people have started waiting for me to finish my thought when i trail off and that’s super scary

our virtuous price discipline//their avaricious opportunism

being the first to like a tweet is one of the top 5 most lewd things in the world

thousand memes for the same idea: each one a memory, an artwork representative of the person, and in total, of the community. oekaki understands.

communities stay the same: oldheads saying how such things have been discussed from the end of time. the community “forgets” as people age, and it has its own eternal youth; this necessarily means that the experience and wear marks of the old are erased. you, remarking how the same topics come up over and over again, are merely a community ghost.

i’m not wearing sunscreen. better turn back

it is an inevitability that every slowly building feature of a man’s life is possessed, cherished, valued. you seek a man free from burdens? look at it: even if he built it not with desiring hopes, merely detached prudence, it is an anchor in his life that cannot be Removed without killing the man. the man is pulled forever in that direction. life experiences, life skills, accumulation of assets, material and immaterial: each fragment of identity is a weight. it is simply how life is: the phenomenon of living occurs whether you want it to or not. look at this now and see: every old person is besieged in all directions by who they are, what they think of things, things that have happened to them, what they’ve done: boxed in by their identity.

everything i believe is against my will. forced upon me by nature of the evidence. i have no choice in the matter.

killing the grandparent by showing them a (great) grandchild (they were holding out to see them)

oh woe, she has memories, fond ones, even, of anything or anyone from before she met you. do you understand how ruined/ran through she is? how cucked you are?

“only a few people’s opinions matter” - no matter how true you think this statement is, it’s even truer than that

you need to play your role because otherwise all the other people around get confused playing their roles and now you’ve fucked it up for everyone

asking for a sampler at the dog food farmer’s market vendor?

you need to be OPINIONATED about energy drinks or ADULTS will not RESPECT you

for search results to be used against you… it is like a forbidden thought. to think X, to wonder about how to do X: instead, you retract it into yourself and believe only that which exists within you. you dare not speak it, dare not search it, dare not let these thoughts escape into the world in any manner, because otherwise you are damned.

transactionally... forgiving someone who wronged you to express piety. swallowing the bitterness and sealing your agency to feel yourself embody holiness. trading one form of yearnful hope (their destruction) for another (heaven)

life pro tip: if you don’t want people leaning back on the seat in front of you on flights, you can just block their seat with your stuff. they’ll either think it’s broken or have to admit they were about to breach the social contract, humanizing you, the victim.

(voice note with crying that may not be transcribed) [i saw this written on a girl's phone in public, and i suppose i am amused by the idea of pouring your heart out to your phone and still having to annotate the bits of humanity lost in translation]

choose your fighter: $1000 first class seat OR $150 economy class seat with $850 of alcohol

despairing at the mediocrity of your creation, attending to that spark of knowing uniqueness within you, is the first step to greatness?

funny part about the nyc subway is everyone is on phone but there is no signal or wifi

waitress at a teahouse serving us green tea and showing the bag to us like a wine bottle

hanging out on a plane bored and sad while the guy next to you is having a spiritual orgasm from meditation on command (in public! just debauchery)

when the news story hits the term and it becomes instantly, gigantically polarized, and you will never find any unbiased source about it ever again (akin to a streisand ddos, indeliberate)

my last words: “please… instrumentalize my death, don’t let it be in vain…”

~“please at least do me the courtesy of trying to be correct when arguing against me”

very difficult for me to express the degree of alienation i feel to other people. i hate it, yes. i understand it may not be all that uncommon, yes. but it’s a fundamental understanding, internalization. also mutual alienation is not always a recipe for commiseration

(climate change activist picking up a new hobby) “what do you say to the fact that 80% of all meat is consumed by corporations? placing the burden of veganism on the individual consumer and driving such hardline cultural trends feels like exactly what corporations would do to deflect blame.”

if your reaction to a new internet meme is that you have to “research” it, ngmi

your meta analysis sucks. n=80 studies? come back when you have a sample size bigger than a college class, moron

(freeze frame of a video of a person) oooohf look at their eyes. just utterly lifeless, not a single sentient thought, no self-awareness at all (they’re just normal eyes without stage lighting)

the second amendment, to me, is the right to kill, with devastating force, anyone you want at any time for any reason. it’s a deep form of trust among the american people. yes, vigilantism can be and is ugly, but americans have chosen to allow ourselves that option because they agree that is sometimes warranted. the citizen makes the decision between reward and punishment. that potent blend of blank check freedom, deep intercitizenry trust, and ability to make change is what makes the american model so empowering. in other countries that tell you “you cannot have a gun. let the state deal with it. the state will shoot the gun for you”, there is a distinct rejection of humanity.

observing the art of livestream audience: you cant just spam the best emotes all the time. everyone knows there is a time and place for everything. being part of the swarm, swelling and receding, it is judo

(guy in an echo chamber) wow, i heard there was a violent revolution happening, but everyone on here is just being so civil and nice right now!

~“only god judges—man cannot say whether his fellow man is going to hell or heaven. only actions may be judged: decry wrong, praise good”... ~“I’m 99% certain you will go to hell, but only god knows the final judgment.”

to be so hopelessly in love with someone, especially unrequited love, is such a sanctuary; no other rejection matters, no other inadequacy matters; you fantasize about something you cannot have, and forget all other hungers.

to be a “good” immigrant rhat has assimilated: … will it ever work? you cant just be “completely” american; you cant just “forget” your heritage. you have to match those around you, with their ethnonationalist standard: you have to be as disgusted with it as they are: leery of sushi, unengaged with bollywood music, uncomfortable with taking your shoes off in a house. if you are “okay” with the things of your culture, if they ever feel even a tiny bit “like home”, then your assimilation has failed.

online fascists be like “you don’t want to find out what happens when there are millions of young men with nothing to lose” and you look inside and it’s just a bunch of boys killing themselves (or watching porn, smoking weed, doing fent, …)

*putting on my contrarian economist hat*: rising elderly nursing costs are a good thing, because in the past, children of seniors would take up much of the burden, even though they would not necessarily be the best ones for the job. when these types of filial obligations are superceded by financialized systems, work becomes economically legible, optimizable through capital, and a driver for line-go-up.

to be "famous" is to have your phantasm trapped in the prison of collective consciousness, bound to servitude

"I wish I could see Mozart's reaction to rock music."

One can't travel back in time with an electric guitar and drums to show him. But, fortunately, science has a solution: we shall create a replica of Mozart, everything we know about him and his environment. It will be a perfect simulation, no compromises made. And we shall make it cheap and widely available, so that everyone can access such an amazing resource.

People tend to be inclined to a bit of originality with these things. "What would Mozart think of my favorite band?" "What would be the best music to seduce Mozart to?" "I wonder what Mozart's screams sound like?"

Ah... there is a bit of cruelty here. Baby Mozart to dead Mozart, a sample plucked out from the life for performance in our magical machine.

[Lena]

~“fresh off the boat from the midwest”

people who get distracted and change the subject when the group is talking about how great you are should be executed

Tues-Thurs conferences vs Fri-Sun conferences

business promotion council websites just full of lies, and are everywhere, but i appreciate centralization of propaganda

tcp udp jokes... *sigh* tiresome. but they used to be a lot more common on the internet, and now a bit relegated to "niche" faux-nerd-intellectual circles. tcp/udp jokes as a macro indicator for nerd population percentage?

people say that war is cruel. but if you examine the human male closely, you will see that they are biologically configured to fight in war: not merely physically, but behaviorally, they have specific adaptations for dying, watching their comrades dying, and killing. In fact, some strands of research suggest that it is even necessary for natural development: a dose of wartime struggle and glory in youth kickstarts healthy psychological changes for adulthood, much like chill hours are needed for some plants to bud.

single issue voter for the price of eggs: absolutely loving the recent election cycles "finally, they get me!"

why people hold headphones in one hand when vibing

do you feel the power of the voter? especially from being the undecided, hard to reach, key turnout voter? everyone is talking about how your vote is the one that really matters this election! (whispers) they are going to blame you for everything

the great thing about the fyp is that it is the top 1% of the top 1% of tweets: every tweet a banger. you have no idea how much worse life would be without it. if you complain, think: do you really think you know better than billions of dollars of algorithmic sophistication learning to separate wheat from chaff day in and day out?

younger me was an idiot. no one should follow his advice. unfortunate for me

you never let a once poor person be elected to political power. you look into their eyes, see that they are haunted by the struggles of food insecurity, crime, low school investment, unhealthy neighborhoods… that despite coming from that and wanting to make a difference, to rectify those injustices and make a better world for where they came from, they are broken. exposed to such ills and pains for society, they have lost sight of ideals, of how great society could be, and instead focus on the problems that need fixing. it is embedded deeply. what do they want? what do they care about? it is all informed by a cycle of trauma, rather than a pursuit of greatness. they will admit: it changes you. it is inescapable. these are beings simply incompatible with being trusted with the most important tasks of humanity.

how do you reset the context irl. haha, seriously, just tell me bro. how do i reset the context with her??? she’s leaving because i said what i should not say and i just need to reset the context so that i can say the right thing. so tell me how i reset the context again. please… (irl romance is just a roguelike)

everybody wanna tell people not to kill themselves but aint nobody wanna lift no heavy ass (emotional) weights

look. i hate terrorism as much as anyone. probably more. but is mass surveillance really the way to handle these things? “he who would give up freedom for security”, right? i just feel that having this over-your-shoulder big brother there always ready to stop you from committing a mass shooting or a bombing is taking away some of my agency. there are so many things in this world that are not in our control, and believing that some things are is how we survive. even though we’d never do them. let me reiterate: i would never shoot up a school. but knowing i would be stopped if i tried is just so much more disheartening.

if you have a problem with my governance, please take it up with my supervisors (the people)

there are 100 mental illnesses locked inside your phone it’s your job to get them out

that pitying look an ai researcher gives to a lifelong craftsman as he reduces a lifetime of effort down to an easily replicable slice of code (looking him in the eyes as the light goes out)

oh no babe, i didn’t fall in love with you at first sight because of insufficient love, i’m just demisexual baby

narrow window of religion evolution on the cusp of urbanization, spread of writing, expanding trade

joke humor lifecycle “you are still at the point where you think it is funny, where i, being far more advanced, have moved to the stage where i think it is tedious.”

romanticizing the third reich, which itself romanticized the old german empires: a kind of historical glory revivalist flywheel

you need to win. you need to talk about how the world was keeping you down when you were young, but you made it. you need to say how you made it more than the smart kids in school, the rich kids, the jock kids. you need to be happy, happier than them. you need to succeed, and to such a degree that they would all be jealous. you need to show that none of it actually mattered in the end, because you won. you need every story and detail of your life to be an indictment of them. you need to look at them with feelings beyond disdain, indignity, resentment; instead you need superiority, condescension, apathy. you need it to be all you. you need to look back on everything with the secure comfort of knowing how great you are, and the aloof pity for all those that lost to your greatness.

when the world is dying, there is the burden of countless legends and stories; the world is crowded with them. and the heroes litter the earth in graves—so many they dont even have room for them all, each declared “let no one forget this name” and that sworn honor upheld.

~“this time, my benevolent authoritarianism shall lead us to greatness!”

there is a fundamental problem with all these ubi studies: it’s not infinite money, and it’s not forever. of course you’re going to see a null effect!

if you need rothko to be actual scale instead of on a phone, you are not a true appreciator

“starter opinions” in guides to subjects: what you might come across in the typical exploration of things, beyond just the starting facts? “what are some good opinions for someone getting into…” — the facts of a new field are important, but often the learner misses what “opinions” are core to the field

the same forces that make the world deeply unfair also allow it to be good. “might makes right” — in some sense a banality, obviously true in the grand scheme. he who optimizes for power will win above all, over any of those who with to win power and use it for goodness (assuming goodness has a cost). yet the world is complicated, not simple; there are so many micro-textures where deciding principles do not win everywhere. thus someone can be smart, beautiful, good, and powerful; an evil-doer does not necessarily forsake all goodness to win incomparable power. there are no inherent tradeoffs that allow the greedful and evil to take the edge, no karmic balance. unfair? sure, but be grateful: this is the only world in which good can win

they’re more online than you. they have more goons than you. they posted 10 replies, 2 dunks, and a substack essay in the time it took you finish eating dinner. they’re looking at your posts from 2017 while you’re looking at their posts from last week. they’re A/B testing memes for your humiliation from multiple accounts on multiple platforms. you are losing in ways you can’t even conceive of. you think this is a game? if you trigger the fury of a dragon, don’t be surprised when he devotes his entire being to your destruction (at least for today)

levels.fyi but for relationships. who’s building this?

overemployment but for relationships. who's building this?

wireheaded lambs: “i’m going to be the best lamb chop anyone could ask for!! you can count on me!! 😊”

acab (all cops are biofuel)

the father that you hate: fail, and he looks at you with disdain; succeed, and he looks at you with ownership. your soul is his no matter what you do.

how do you respond? even your own path of success is still under ownership. no matter what it is, he looks at you with that self-serving pride. perhaps you wish to revoke that from him via your self-destruction. but his response: disdain, apathy, disappointment, anger... he laments unharmed: "this tortured child failed with all my wonderful genes and resources, it must only be that they are a spectacular dud."

no! instead, you will destroy him, sully his name. he will look up at you from the dirt, knowing he has been reduced to nothing... then in your triumphant position you can look down on him, having secured your selfhood. but instead of this..gah! there is a glint of legacy in his eye, that pride.

there is no choice now. he must become nothing, as must you: bring him down, then tumble in the pit of worthlessness with him: the only safe ground. so you have come from him, so will the world rebound to deliver karmic justice: you, as offspring, by devoting your derived being to the annihilation of the source, can achieve your only sovereign contribution to the world. there is no victory besides doom against the father.

yogurt containers that are specifically lickable: dont need spoon to eat all of it (did my dog write this?)

if you don’t appreciate me at my flop, you dont deserve me at my banger

yearning every day with aspirationporn videos, until you may one day be chosen and uplifted into the heaven of creator-dom: new income source, the grind life is gone. replace with selling dreams to those who still grind.

why do all office chairs have wheels. where do people need to go.

always wanting new foods: tastier, healthier, better formats. food companies gladly oblige; experimenting with new foods and substances all the time. but there is some inherent risk, especially for longer time horizons, then you end up with tragedies of public nutrition. this is a karmic punishment of consumer greed: incentivizing risk, flirting with the unknown that flirts back alluringly; neverending cycle of not knowing nutritional consequences.

"fluffer" you are descending step by step into a hell of your own making. perhaps you don't even feel the inanity yet; perhaps you never will. the easy likes by people who are as deluded as you surround you now, and will forever. your mind has linked two concepts together on a conceptual level and soldered them together permanently by humor. dog brain.

mother's lobster tail recipe (it's soup)

coming back to something, a project, a community, and see that it has died. you feel so mournful: oh what a wonderful thing, it is such a tragedy it is gone! but it was a coordinated thing, where all it takes is one to keep it alive. how ostentatious your mourning is. do you not feel ashamed to say you miss it, when the truth says otherwise?

that huge ick when a guy has to tie his shoes on a hike

insane that grocery stores can deduct stolen goods from taxes. So if you steal a normal amount, you don't really hurt their expected profits. you have to steal a lot to make an impact. just feels like the common man is powerlesss before these corporations, with the laws favoring them... it's so hard to even fight back.

wikipedia, but it describes everything excpet the thing the person is most famous for

red light cameras: ~"it's like making money from thin air" ~"no taxes, just a faucet of clean green", ~"the solar of government revenue"

smiling at your phone in public (while not typing): utterly SHAMEFUL!

family debriefing after a social event

a "this world is therapy" model of fiction critical analysis

threatening me with medicare ?

virtuemaxxing

comically, being wrong about something in the modern day (in politics) seems to be biased towards getting it completely wrong. "not only does their policy not accomplish what they think, it does the exact opposite!" how is it that such a pattern becomes more common over time? you might expect that with refinement and learning, being wrong becomes a more nuanced matter

organ redistribution trends from healthy young bikers to ??? older high-organ-demand elderly